SAFE & SECURE
I used to think that if I was truly protected, my body had to be free of disease and sickness, and my mind free of confusion, doubt and deceit.
When I didn’t get my way as a child, I assumed I was being controlled rather than helped. When I was harmed, I assumed I was being endangered rather than kept safe. I thought being helped and kept safe meant I would get what I wanted and be protected from physical harm.
Life has proven I do not always get my way, and my body suffers harm and sickness.
Instead of shifting my view, I shifted my methods and relied predominately on myself, despite claiming to trust God. I built a box to define my comfort zone and constructed defenses and mechanisms to protect myself and control my surroundings. I became controlling, critical, apathetic, and withdrawn. Claiming to rely on God, I was really partnered with the accuser. I tried to fit God into my box instead of aligning with Him.
Gently, God began to wake me up. He taught me that He has been there all along:
God always planned good, very good, things for me even though the people in my life, including myself, sometimes took the wrong assignment and followed the accuser’s path instead of God’s.
God’s protection has been active and effective to keep safe and secure the part of me that will live on when my physical tent fades away. Nothing and no one has ever harmed the eternal core of me. I have always been safe and secure. I always shall be safe and secure as long as my HOME is with God through Jesus Christ my Lord.
There is no condemnation or shame for the lifetime spent confused and caught up in self-seeking behavior and defense. Each day of turning toward HOME is greatly rejoiced in heaven. I shall spend my remaining time on earth turning toward home and being celebrated, one moment at a time.
I am safe and secure in Father God’s perfect love. Nothing and no one can ever take me from His hand. He is never afraid or overwhelmed and welcomes me in all my humanness and uniqueness.